Chapter 14: Catching Up....

Well its been a while since I updated my Blog its probably time (:

In the last couple months a lot has changed. I quit my 8to5 day job & went back to dispatch for the Unified Police Department.. what can I say I definitely missed the job. I have been working the graveyard shift, its been fun & challenging. The action at night time & having it be summer has made the criminals come out of the wood works! Graveyards really is a busy busy shift which makes it really exciting. Working at night & sleeping during the day can get pretty lonely especially on your days off. Thankfully I have a lot of friends who work graves & we are able to relate to eachother having the same odd shift.

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Both of my best friends got engaged in the last month on the same day April 25th 2012 (:

Eliza Jane Hamblin is soon to be Eliza Jane Udall (:

Elizabeth Anne Brown is soon to be Elizabeth Anne Whitlock

Cant tell you how absolutely excited and over joyed I am that they both have found amazing & worthy men to spend the rest of eternity with! Both Dallyn & Levi are the most outstanding men, I have come to know & I love them dearly! I know both of these ladies are in very good hands (:

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I am almost 21 (:

I know that usually means you can drink & party now but for me it means I can almost be start on my way to becoming a police officer and going to the police academy! Yay!

We are taking a girls Vegas trip in July I cant even wait!

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I have been trying to figure out what I can do in the form of service with my crazy schedule. & I think starting with being better at my church calling is going to be #1 on that list.

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I have been training my booty off at the gym every day & making it a habit to RUN.. thats right RUN. I hate it so much! lol! It has been soo overwhelmingly awesome to jump through challenges & going further & further everyday (:

Mind over matter.. I know they say it all the time.. but its really true! 

Today when I was at the gym, a woman who is always at the gym the same time I am came up to me & told me that even though we are our hardest critics that she has watched me work really hard & that I have a cute little body. WOW really??! That is the most awesome thing coming from some one who works just as hard as I do! I was speechless! I have got my courage up & have teamed up with a photographer, Anthony Angelos, to take photos of my progress & body morphing.

(Photos are really good for making you want to do better & look better! This photoshoot gave me tons of motivation & put a fire under my but to get up & work out continuously! Never giving up!)

Keeping my fingers crossed!!

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Working on reading scriptures & praying everyday. I dont know why it is so so hard for me right now. You ever feel the same way?

&& I am always needing to be reminded of this..

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Updates comin soonish (:

Chapter 13: Being Humbled....

Humbled: Lower (someone) in dignity or importance

This year has brought a lot of joy & challenges. I am so thankful for it. A couple weeks ago my best friend was baptized & it was honestly incredible. She is honestly the most humble and selfless person I know & when times get tough she will always say with a smile on her face..

 "Just give it to God, it will all work out"

 

Man we have grown up in the last 8 years haha

Liz is so full of love and compassion for others. I dont know what I would do with out her.  I am so glad she has met one of the most incredible men I know & has made friends with awesome people (:

Levi you're the bomb & I have nothing but love & respect for you - You are honestly a saint, thank you for taking care of Liz & also welcoming me into your circle of friends.

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I have had an opportunity to test for Tempe Police Department - what an awesome experience! Although I didn't make the cut, I learned so much. I know exactly what my weaknesses are & what I will be working on so that I can keep bettering my self to obtain my dreams. 

"Its not about how many times you fall, but how many times you get back up"

I was very very lucky & had a support system drive all the way to Arizona with me, stay there while I was testing for 10 hours & drive all 12 hours again back to Utah. I would have really been beside myself if Liz wasnt there. [THANKYOU SWEETHEART]

  

Visited Lake Powell on the way back & made future camping trips - We will go back for the Dam Tour (:

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Being in Arizona I was able to see my soul sister & best friend Eliza Jane -- Cant tell you how much I have missed her beautiful face! && Of course as the hostest with the mostest she entertained Liz & I (: Love you Liza so so much - so honored to be called Bliza (:

  CANT WAIT for you to come to UTAH yay wrist (:

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I have applied for Tucson Police Department, hopefully I will be invited back to test (: in the mean time I am just going to be training as hard as I possibly can so I can do my best & learn more.

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Also in the last month working at a new job and applying for different departments has been stressful to say the least. I miss dispatching hopefully I can go back part time - but I know that I am moving in the right direction towards my dreams being able to focus on things I have personally put aside for far too long. That being said I have had the opportunity to go on ride a longs.. & oh my gosh I honestly can say again & again, I know with all my heart this is what I want to do for the rest of my life. I love every minute of it. I crave it & its honestly in my blood & apart of me. I have never felt so much happiness in my life - its honestly amazing to be able to see what makes you truly happy. I have learned so much about my self its crazy. I am so excited for what is to come next (: I cant wait to be a police officer - & I know I seriously need to find some patience somewhere inside of me-I know my time will come.

"Faith means trust--trust in God's will, trust in His way of doing things, and trust in His timetable. ... The issue for us is trusting God enough to trust also His timing" - Dallin H Oaks

 

Chapter 12: Remembering Whats REALLY Important....

Happy New Year (: woot 2012!

Although I feel as if I have been through hell and back in 2011 I have been comforted by the many friends and family members that love me.

I have learned so much about myself, and I finally figured out that I dont have everything figured out haha. I have been humbled to know that I am not alone in feeling the way I do about my life today.

I shut the door on Heavenly Father a lot this year. It amazes me that no matter how much you do that, he will still be standing there waiting for you to invite him into your life. I am so grateful for all of the supportive family & friends I have backing me up every step of the way and supporting my every goal, wish & dream. I am very lucky to be blessed with such awesome friends who are there for me at all hours of the day and night (: (THANKYOU!)

I am leaving 2011 feeling that much has been learned. I am looking forward to 2012 with a new perspective.

Walk with me, I heard him say,
Walk with me awhile today.

Talk with me, I heard him speak,
Talk with me of the things you think.

Share with me the things you feel,
Share with me so you can heal.

Cry with me through your heartbreaks,
Cry with me when your soul aches.

Look with me, a new sunrise!
Look with me through opened eyes.

See with me the world anew,
See with me my point of view.

Laugh with me in pure delight,
Laugh with me it’s all alright!

Sing with me as we stroll along,
Sing with me I love your song.

Learn with me your wondrous story,
Learn with me your prior glory.

Know with me just who you are,
Know with me we’ve traveled far.

Create with me and dreams come true,
Create with me I create through you!

Walk with me on Heaven’s shore,
Walk with me forever more!

Greg Olsen - 2007

I am truly grateful for the trials of this year. It has helped me learn to have complete faith & trust in the Lord, to know that no matter what he will take care of me. When you live your life according to the commandments that the gospel intels it really does make life so much easier & care free. 

I hope this new year brings happiness & and new beginnings for everyone (:

I have decided the theme for 2012 will be something that my parents have always said in a joking and loving way..

"Remember who you are and what you stand for"

xo

Chapter 11: This Changed My Life....

There is nothing more inspirational & moving than the story of Team Hoyt. This actually was one of the reasons I started this blog. I cry every time I watch this.

Chapter 10: Bob Knows Where Its At....

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.” 
-Bob Marley

 

Chapter 9: Positivity is Key

This occurred on..
October 10th 2011

Its been one of those days where things have gotten progressively worse haha.

Ya know when its just one thing right after the next?

Maybe Im crazy but I have been having 'one of those days'.

Even though I dont like fast food I went to Arbys tonight because I start a clean pure food diet tomorrow. I pulled up and ordered a kids meal because they are just that good (: as I pulled up to pay at the window I was greated by the boy working the drive through. As he handed me part of my meal he asked .."HEY how are you today?"

This is how our conversation went...

Arbys Guy: Hey how are you today??

Me: Im alright thank you, how are you?

Arbys Guy: I am doing great and getting better!

Me: Oh thats so great

Arbys Guy: Ya, you look like you have had a day and a half

Me: Oh ya.. its just been one of those days (with a fake smile all over my face)

as I sat there and waited for my food I saw him start what I thought was an order for a customer inside. He handed me my food and then a LARGE Jamoca shake with oreo cookies ontop. I did not order that and as I drove away I was confused. I walked back inside and said.."hey i didnt order this I want to make sure it goes to the right person" he looked at me and said ya you did and winked.

Its the little things in life that help you know that you are going to be just fine. I look at this boys attitude and I want to be just like him. I have never heard anyone respond with 'my day is going GREAT and getting even BETTER'.. talk about positive.

yum yum (:

Chapter 8: Feeling the Difference

So in my journy of becoming a more well rounded and positive person I am starting to see some pretty awesome changes in my life.

It seems so simple.

Step 1: Wake up with a smile and tell your self today is a good day and be gracious God has given you another day to live and be with the ones you love

Step 2: Keep that smile on and make the most of what the day is bringing you be it good or bad

Step 3: When shit hits the fan react differently than you normally would and give everyone the benefit of the doubt you dont know what others are going through we all have our own issues

Step 4: Love unconditionally, let people know you are grateful for their existance in your life

Step 5: Keep going when things get rough and know that tomorrow is going to be a better day and bring new adventures, joys and trials

Step 6: Remebering what doesnt kill you makes you stronger (big thank you to my great friend Dave for telling me this) And also remember to take a step back a breath before reacting (big thank you to my girl Bri she is the best!)

Step 7: Do something for some one else just so they feel special and important, you yourself will feel warm inside (its a real feeling and its my favorite)

Step 8: Keep remembering that things could be worse, pray for comfort but also know that sometimes God lets it rain so that your heart can get stronger and grow

Step 9: Give god time, your self time, people time, give situations time, and time time

Step 10: When you have a fantastic day or experience remember to thank God, dont just talk to him when you need him the most, he deserves a thank you when he has blessed your life (:

This all seems so simple but I can say that it has been super hard for me to remember and get through those 10 steps everyday. As I have come to recognise these things I have seen a change in my life. I speak a little kinder, I walk a little taller, I feel a little bit more, I can help others and I can be enjoyable to be around. All I can say is that I am grateful that I have started doing this and I wish I could have started seeing that I needed these improvements in my life sooner I think I would have been able to keep more friends and family happy. But like I love to always say ...

THERE IS NO DAY LIKE TODAY

I am so grateful for my life and the things that are in store for me. I cant wait for the next adventure.